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hey guys...
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hey guys, sorry I havient been on much latly
been going though a lot and been feeling sad and depressed about a lot of things latly
and I been feeling like I have lost myself and im trying to find myself again,if that makes sence
well,I did get my ipad back recitly but I still feel like my dad still dosent trust me
JUST BEACAUSE I MADE ONE STUPID MISTAKE ON SOCIAL MEDIA
now he is afraid something will happen to me if he dosent keep an eye on me 24/7
like hello im 19 years old for crying out loud,I know better now to be more careful on social medial
but I feel like my dad never really listens to me anymore no matter what I say
and sometimes when I do try to talk to him he just puts me down of what I have to say and dosent really listen to what I have to say
witch makes me mad and makes it harder for me to be able to talk to him anymore
I always end up freezing up now when I talk to him
I have a lame phone that I cant even text on cause he decided its best to just take texting off my phone
and when ever I talk to him about he just says to me "well you have your phone to talk to people"
well dad im sorry to tell you this but I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE
dont know why but I always hated talking on the phone,thats why im trying to find a way to ask my dad nicly about putting texting back on my phone
and with out his gf there to
sorry about my little rant....just a lot of things have been bothering me...
yeah I got my ipad back...and you would think I would be happy about that....well your wrong
my dad put parient controls on my ipad to the point that I cant really do anything on it but watch youtube videos and watch anime
witch makes me mad and sad at the same time...he lets me go one like hardly any sites at all and the sites he does let me go on
are mostly sites like ebay and amazon witch suck...
he wont even let me have any social media whats so ever on my ipad....tell me...does that sound fair to you at all?
cause it dosent to me...I would do anything to get my dad to trust me again...
I dont even have any of my music...my dad took all my music away from me...all my ipods away like about a few weeks to a mouth now...
and still never got them back....like sometimes I honstly feel like he dosent want me to be happy...
I hate everything....I never feel truly happy at home anymore....
I always just want to lock myself in my room and not want to be around anyone....
but my dad gets mad at me when I lock the door...but I lock it for a reason....I lock it cause I just want some time alone...
cant he even respect that?
well sorry for my rant there...just had to let it out....
if you want to know more of what has been going on with me...plz just message me bellow or sent me a note
well thats all I have to say for now....I do miss you guys a lot
been going though a lot and been feeling sad and depressed about a lot of things latly
and I been feeling like I have lost myself and im trying to find myself again,if that makes sence
well,I did get my ipad back recitly but I still feel like my dad still dosent trust me
JUST BEACAUSE I MADE ONE STUPID MISTAKE ON SOCIAL MEDIA
now he is afraid something will happen to me if he dosent keep an eye on me 24/7
like hello im 19 years old for crying out loud,I know better now to be more careful on social medial
but I feel like my dad never really listens to me anymore no matter what I say
and sometimes when I do try to talk to him he just puts me down of what I have to say and dosent really listen to what I have to say
witch makes me mad and makes it harder for me to be able to talk to him anymore
I always end up freezing up now when I talk to him
I have a lame phone that I cant even text on cause he decided its best to just take texting off my phone
and when ever I talk to him about he just says to me "well you have your phone to talk to people"
well dad im sorry to tell you this but I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE
dont know why but I always hated talking on the phone,thats why im trying to find a way to ask my dad nicly about putting texting back on my phone
and with out his gf there to
sorry about my little rant....just a lot of things have been bothering me...
yeah I got my ipad back...and you would think I would be happy about that....well your wrong
my dad put parient controls on my ipad to the point that I cant really do anything on it but watch youtube videos and watch anime
witch makes me mad and sad at the same time...he lets me go one like hardly any sites at all and the sites he does let me go on
are mostly sites like ebay and amazon witch suck...
he wont even let me have any social media whats so ever on my ipad....tell me...does that sound fair to you at all?
cause it dosent to me...I would do anything to get my dad to trust me again...
I dont even have any of my music...my dad took all my music away from me...all my ipods away like about a few weeks to a mouth now...
and still never got them back....like sometimes I honstly feel like he dosent want me to be happy...
I hate everything....I never feel truly happy at home anymore....
I always just want to lock myself in my room and not want to be around anyone....
but my dad gets mad at me when I lock the door...but I lock it for a reason....I lock it cause I just want some time alone...
cant he even respect that?
well sorry for my rant there...just had to let it out....
if you want to know more of what has been going on with me...plz just message me bellow or sent me a note
well thats all I have to say for now....I do miss you guys a lot
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hey guys....
3 min read
sorry I havient wrote a jounal latly
just been going though a lot in my life and not doing so much better...since the last jounal I wrote....
I dont want to make you guys worry about me...but I been going though some tough times in my life...
for the past couple mouths...and its really hard for me...to talk about to...
lets just say that I been feeling depressed for about a couple mouths now.....
and thats never a good feeling...not one bit...
and right now I feel like I lost myself...and I am trying to find myself and who I really am again....
if that makes any sence
lets just say I did something stupid and for what I did my dad took away my ipad and my ipod...
witch means I have no music whats so ever that I can listen to...and music was one of the few things....
that helped me coped with everything....
witch I hate and now I feel like my dad is mad at me again witch makes me feel even more sad than I have been feeling the past couple mouths...since yesterday morning he has been barly talking to me...I mean like saying very few words to me at all and when he talked to me in the car he didnt look to happy...and we barly talked to each other in the car....we both didnt have much to say to each other....
I honstly dont feel confortbal talking to my dad about anything thats on my mind....cause of many reasons....
plus I tend to freeze up a lot when ever I try to talk to my dad to...
witch also makes it harder to talk to him to....
I am just going though a rough patch in my life right now and feel like I have lost my way
and I am trying to find myself again..
I really do miss talking to you guys...and as soon as I get my stuff back I will try to be online a little more or when ever I can
since I am busy during the week with this program I go to during the day...
at least that gets me out of the house for a bit during the day instead of being stuck at the house all day
well im trying my best to hang in there guys
feel free to message me bellow or sent me a comment
I would love to hear from you guys
so thats all I have ton say for now
well peace out for now
just been going though a lot in my life and not doing so much better...since the last jounal I wrote....
I dont want to make you guys worry about me...but I been going though some tough times in my life...
for the past couple mouths...and its really hard for me...to talk about to...
lets just say that I been feeling depressed for about a couple mouths now.....
and thats never a good feeling...not one bit...
and right now I feel like I lost myself...and I am trying to find myself and who I really am again....
if that makes any sence
lets just say I did something stupid and for what I did my dad took away my ipad and my ipod...
witch means I have no music whats so ever that I can listen to...and music was one of the few things....
that helped me coped with everything....
witch I hate and now I feel like my dad is mad at me again witch makes me feel even more sad than I have been feeling the past couple mouths...since yesterday morning he has been barly talking to me...I mean like saying very few words to me at all and when he talked to me in the car he didnt look to happy...and we barly talked to each other in the car....we both didnt have much to say to each other....
I honstly dont feel confortbal talking to my dad about anything thats on my mind....cause of many reasons....
plus I tend to freeze up a lot when ever I try to talk to my dad to...
witch also makes it harder to talk to him to....
I am just going though a rough patch in my life right now and feel like I have lost my way
and I am trying to find myself again..
I really do miss talking to you guys...and as soon as I get my stuff back I will try to be online a little more or when ever I can
since I am busy during the week with this program I go to during the day...
at least that gets me out of the house for a bit during the day instead of being stuck at the house all day
well im trying my best to hang in there guys
feel free to message me bellow or sent me a comment
I would love to hear from you guys
so thats all I have ton say for now
well peace out for now
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hey there guys
3 min read
hey Im so sorry for not posting anything in a long time
or witch seems like a really long time to me....and sorry for not being online much
so much been going on in my life...
and been dealing with a great deal of depression for a little over a mouth now
and I just hate it so much...and cant stand it anymore...
dont you just hate it when you feel so sad and depressed that it feels like your all alone and that its so hard to keep your mind off of it no matter what you do...well thats what I been feeling like latly...
yeah I know things will sowly get better but I just tired of feeling this way..
well thats me letting my feeling out there...dont really want to say why I been feeling so depressed and sad...
if you must know message bellow or sent me a note would be better...
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so since I havient been online much I wasnt able to post anything in a while, and plz forgive me about that
I am working on a couple new storys witch I am kinda stuck on....
one of them is a soul eater fanfic of the couple of maka X soul...just love the anime and the pairing latly so rectly decided to make a fanfic of it...I will post the first chap as soon as I finish it...hope you guys will love it
and the other fanfic I am working or at least trying to is a shugo chara fanfic with the pairing of amu X ikuto witch is my fav pairing in the anime and its one of my new fav animes to
just love it so much..want to get the complete anime and manga one day...
anyways having a harder time with this fanfic...have so many ideas but dont know how to put them together
dont know...I gess its a little harder to make a fanfic of shugo chara...
if anyone that is also a big fan of the anime...I wouldnt mind a little help with my fanfic...
that would help me a lot...
also writing fanficion sometimes helps me when I am feeling sad or really depressed or just down about something
but not always...sometimes it makes me feel more down...
well thats all I have to say for now...if any of you would like to chat I would love to talk
just message me or sent me a note...miss talking to a lot of you guys...
so bye for now and peace out
or witch seems like a really long time to me....and sorry for not being online much
so much been going on in my life...
and been dealing with a great deal of depression for a little over a mouth now
and I just hate it so much...and cant stand it anymore...
dont you just hate it when you feel so sad and depressed that it feels like your all alone and that its so hard to keep your mind off of it no matter what you do...well thats what I been feeling like latly...
yeah I know things will sowly get better but I just tired of feeling this way..
well thats me letting my feeling out there...dont really want to say why I been feeling so depressed and sad...
if you must know message bellow or sent me a note would be better...
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so since I havient been online much I wasnt able to post anything in a while, and plz forgive me about that
I am working on a couple new storys witch I am kinda stuck on....
one of them is a soul eater fanfic of the couple of maka X soul...just love the anime and the pairing latly so rectly decided to make a fanfic of it...I will post the first chap as soon as I finish it...hope you guys will love it
and the other fanfic I am working or at least trying to is a shugo chara fanfic with the pairing of amu X ikuto witch is my fav pairing in the anime and its one of my new fav animes to
just love it so much..want to get the complete anime and manga one day...
anyways having a harder time with this fanfic...have so many ideas but dont know how to put them together
dont know...I gess its a little harder to make a fanfic of shugo chara...
if anyone that is also a big fan of the anime...I wouldnt mind a little help with my fanfic...
that would help me a lot...
also writing fanficion sometimes helps me when I am feeling sad or really depressed or just down about something
but not always...sometimes it makes me feel more down...
well thats all I have to say for now...if any of you would like to chat I would love to talk
just message me or sent me a note...miss talking to a lot of you guys...
so bye for now and peace out
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almost thanksgiving
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ok tomrrow is thanksgiving and am going to be busy tomrrow
I am going to spent lunch with my mom and going to stay there for like a good 3-4 hours then I am going to my dads gfs sisters house for dinner that day and the only thing I dont like about it is that its about a couple hour drive both ways. <_>
well am going to make sure I have movies on my ipad for sure tomrrow and hopefully I get my phone back by then if not am going to die and might just stay home instead I really dont know
and plz dont ask why I got my phone taken away its been almost a week with no phone and I really dont want to talk about it.
at least I have my ipad and laptop back now otherwise I would die
any ways since its almost thanksgiving....am going to say what am thankful for
so am thankful for my family,pets and friends witch I love them all very much
and thank you for all of you that have always been there for me
it really means a lot to me and I thank you guys for that
well what are you guys doing for thanksgiving and what are you guys thankful for?
sorry I havient been wrighting much jurnals latly but I promise I will try to post more stuff and jurnals to
well thats all I have to say for now
hope you guys have a wonderful thankgiving and be thankful for what you have
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almost HOLLWEEN!!!!!!
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yeah!!!! almost hollween ^_^
only five more days....been doing a countdown for the days till hollween....
this has to be one one of my fav times of the year....might be cause I love all the scary stuff and loved scary movies since I was pretty young...and dont gudge me.....I grew up with two older brothers....
so I always watched what ever they would be watching or be playing.....
so...for hollween I am going to my best bro`s hollween party this year....
and going to dress up as rin riding hood...got the idea from one of my best friends....
one day I was talking about being red riding hood then she thought of the idea of rin riding hood....
so going to make it look cute but also creepy.....
and my best bro is going to dress up as black rock shooter this year to...
its going to be a lot of fun this year....so thats what I am going to be doing for hollween...
so....what are you guys going to be for hollween?....and what are you going to be doing for hollween?
I want to know....and what are your fav scary movies to?...
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